There is a documentary called ‘The Bridge’ which is basically about people committing suicide from the Golden Gate Bridge; “Since the Golden Gate Bridge opened in 1937 there have been at least 1,400 suicides — many cases are not included in the official count because bodies were not found, even when a suicide was witnessed. There were 59 of these unconfirmed suicides from 2000 to 2010, plus 308 confirmed cases during those years. Additionally, an unknown number of people are believed to have jumped at night unobserved” (The New York Times, 2011). When I saw this movie I was outraged by the unethical methods used by the director; there seemed a million questions that needed answered and a little digging on my part offered some insight into his methods which were less than honest to say the least. Still, I “enjoyed” the movie; if a movie about people killing themselves can be enjoyed, especially when it does actually show people committing suicide.
Anyway, this is my connection to the bridge, it brings up similar feelings for me that Alcatraz does.There is something in these places that I feel, deep down inside. Perhaps it is hopelessness, despair; the feeling that life has nothing else to offer? I have felt these things at times in my life; I have also been locked up and been filled with a hatred for humanity and myself that drove my decisions and took me to prisons around the UK, this is also why I work where I work. I get it, I understand on some level that things are not black and white, peoples choices have many layers of self and society mixed up in them and dictating them and the decision to take your own life seems to me to be a last gasp way of taking control of your life in the midst of it all being taken away and destroyed by forces that are, or at least seem to be, out of your realm of influence. I don’t know if this makes any sense to anyone; it does not actually matter I guess, I am just processing my thoughts.








Alcatraz from the bridge.







Being at the bridge was an amazing experience for me and I am so glad we went. The fog surrounding it gave it an atmosphere that added to its allure and mystery.
Next off we drove to San Jose and the Winchester Mystery House. This belonged to Mrs Sara Winchester of yes, the Winchester Repeating Arms Company who built the house non-stop for 38 years until her death. According to the font of all knowledge; Wikipedia there are two versions of why she did this: “popular belief holds that the Boston Medium told Winchester that she had to leave her home in New Haven and travel West, where she must “build a home for yourself and for the spirits who have fallen from this terrible weapon, too. You must never stop building the house. If you continue building, you will live forever. But if you stop, then you will die.” Is the first version and the one used by the tour guide we had. The second version is similar: “and says that after the deaths of her daughter and later her husband, she consulted a medium who told her that she must build a house and never cease building it, otherwise the spirits that killed her family members would come after her, too. After that she began construction on the maze-like house full of twists, turns, and dead ends, so that the spirits would get lost and never be able to find her”
Finn had come across mention of this house in a book that he and Jeni were reading so the googled it and we went to see it. The house is amazing. It is built over 6 acres I believe and has 160 rooms. There are stairs going into ceilings and doors opening into walls and stair cases that have two inch risers. It just goes on and on. They did not allow cameras in during the tour, but they did allow us to take pictures in the gun museum and outside.








Five minutes from the Winchester House lives Pucky and Shannon and KJ and Mitchell, folks from Parksville who now live here as Pucky works for Apple in Silicon Valley. They have been awesome and gave us a room to sleep in last night. It was really nice to catch up and reignite what is hopefully a real blossoming friendship. A latish night and I was awake at 7:30, with Finn not long behind me; Jeni is still out for the count. Maybe I will make her a coffee and wake her. Or maybe not, we are starting the journey home today and flying by the seat of our pants so are in no particular hurry. Until tonight or tomorrow, peace out.